Wednesday, November 11, 2009

"And on the roads of the seasons rode,

With Summer the feeling of

annoyance, fury and anger...

along came the joy of springing happiness

and the sober tone of tears wetting

on the roads of the paths of rain,

a feeling of love and romance scaled

followed by the autumn of falling hopes

and winter of emotions numb..."

Emotion is one of the guiding factors that determine the actions that a person does. What is emotion? It is in a way the way in which we perceive something. Emotions are feelings that engulf us in different ways. They change and vary within us like seasons in a year. In a way seasons and emotions are closely related. There are certain factors that cause an emotion to act in particular ways. If we try to gather together the various emotions that practically co-exists with us; to name a few, Anger, Love, Sympathy, Fear, Indifference, isolation, depression, joy, enlightenment etc, we can at some point of time relate it to varying seasons. The emotions can of course override us in situations of extremities, but at a basic level, the common emotions that are dominant in us given particular situations may act the same for many people.

Now, close your eyes and take a walk with me. Visualise a stroll along the road that is filled with yellow flowers on both the sides. And allow all the five seasons; Summer, Spring, Monsoon, Winter and Autumn walk along with you…

Summer is usually characterised as Sunny, Bright and Hot. Summer reflects the emotions anger, annoyance, irritation and the like. Taking a walk along a summer road would seem really irritating as the heat of the sun can practically pierce into your skin. However happy one may try to keep oneself, the heat that surges into the body will at a point keep the mind disturbed. With the summers the longing for the Spring blooms in our minds.

Now, a freshening thought about the freshening season ahead would give an internal rush of happiness and joy. Spring can be made to ensemble with the bright colors like yellow, green and colors of joy. Often during spring you may feel to just stroll around your favorite spaces. The same road that you walked during summer would seem brighter and filled with joy. Sometimes it is possible for a really unhappy person to suddenly feel happy. That is the power of season and what nature can offer us with.

The Monsoons have a mixed emotional behavior. It can make a person entirely joyous as though floating in the air and on the other hand, it can make him feel really depressed and sober. Sometimes, the reasons as to sudden sadness or happiness or any kind of emotional shift cannot be traced. The seasons and the atmosphere that you are in will have an influence on it. The pelting down of raindrops down my windowpane was one factor that I disliked once. It sometimes endured in me a pain that I wanted to get rid of. But, at times rain has made me happy and a surge of happiness engulfed me. The feeling of coolness runs parallel with the emotion of love and romance. An overdose of coolness would put us in winter. Winter relates to a feeling of numbness and immobility. The laziness in us awakens in the winter.

The next emotion that haunts us is grief and passing away of joy. The sight of falling leaves will leave us with a thought of passing memories. The falling leaves can be thought of as a reminder to a new and more pleasant event that may be coming up. The feeling of loss and failure will be over ridden with the feeling of hope in that case.

At times emotions can act weird with us. There can be a mix of many of them together. One may find oneself in s difficult situation to understand oneself. We are all, unconsciously, people who are guided with the foreplay of emotions. As I said earlier it co-exists with us. Like the passing of the seasons in our life, the emotions would come in and go out leaving a stance every time it makes an entry and an exit.

Saturday, November 7, 2009

I had been away from this city since the past five months; precisely four months and 26 days. Life in my host city now is way different when compared to my home land. Now, it’s been two weeks since I’ve been here at the heart of Trivandrum and what say….! I am falling in love with it all over again…Absolutely! Trivandrum when drenched in the rain that pours slightly almost everyday now, is like a rose flower that got drizzled.

I haven’t seen more than one movie having been in Bangalore the past few months. The fact that a movie ticket costs almost Rs. 120 keeps me away from the theatres. The less expensive entertainment that Trivandrum provides us, with the warmth and caress of a dear one, makes one feel more close to home. I saw the movie ‘Swa Le’ just now. The movie was dragging in between, however, it has got a sweet ending. Somehow, after the movie when I got out of the theatre, the breeze gave a sudden gush of happiness inside me. And such happiness happens only when you totally love something.

Some thoughts that are running past my mind now…;
  • The hot teas that you get at the road side…nothing can taste better and make you feel better than that on a rainy evening.
  • The cinema posters that I saw around and still see around, all looked so alien to me the past week. I felt as though I have totally lost touch with this place. But now, all of them are becoming familiar.
  • The sight of your mother-tongue being displayed on the boards; yes, that also makes me feel so at home.
  • Meeting up with old feels like you are a kid once again..! :)
  • Sometimes, a short walk in the rain through the super clean and sometimes really filthy roads would give me a feel to enjoy the blacks and whites of the city and of life.
  • And yes, the transport. How I missed the ‘meter system’ and the K.S.R.T.C buses. A crowded bus on a busy day can be fun if you make yourself happy inside it. I had a fun ride once on my way back home.
  • Home made food- it is one of the many factors that keep driving me back home often. Nothing can beat the delicacies at home.

After five months from June 11th 2009, Thiruvananthapuram still looks the same except for few changes like the progression of the bridge construction at Bakery Junction, the lawn now totally green and beautiful at Palayam and the slight changes in the bus routes.

All together this city has given me a threshold of memories and places that I keep thinking of to get back to. And often I’ve felt that it is this longing to get back to somewhere you love is one among the factors that keeps life going on. It might me a place or a person or an incident, a moment; let free what it might be, but a hope of happiness at the other end of your life keeps the inner you joyous and glee with enthusiasm.

Once again let me say my heart out…

I am Falling In Love…with Trivandrum…all over again…Absolutely…


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